September 4, 2010

So, had this big coversation with the guy, and basically what he said is that we’ll never work because we live 45 minutes away. Lame, that’s like how long it takes to get across town on the bus. I don’t really think that’s the reason though, because I mean even when he was around all the time, he wasn’t interested in an actual relationship. I think it has something to do with someone else. Like another girl, that he wants to be with, and if he gets into a relationship with me it’ll mean he might ruin his chances with her in the future. I dunno.

This girl also wrote some romantic song lyrics on his Facebook wall and he says he isn’t interested but I highly doubt that. I think he just doesn’t want to get into any drama, because he totally “liked it” and commented on it. And when I mentioned that he totally eluded the question. And I think they were talking on msn too, because they happened to be online at the same time and he took a long tiime to respond and change his profile picture to a good one of him. GOD I HATE HIM SO MUCH. He is the biggest liar. And there is nothing I can do to make myself feel better. Maybe I just need to have a little more faith in him. Or maybe I just need to cut him out of my life all together. It’s just I have never met anyone as right for me as him, so it’s hard, I feel like I’m giving up my soulmate (as cheesey as that sounds). I know one day I’ll find someone else who will be so right for me I won’t know what I was thinking falling in love with this jerk.

Things just suck right now. I’m sooooo angry! I don’t know what to do :( I’m too old for this shit. I’m too old to be having all this drama and stressing over this asshole, I should be concerned with more important things.

I really think there is another girl and that’s why he doesn’t want to be with me. I might be wrong but generally I’m not. Almost everytime I think something is going on, it is.